एक रात!

ना जाने कैसी रात थी वो,

ना जाने कैसी सोच थी वो,

ना जाने कैसी तकलीफ़ थी वो,

समझ में जब आया, तब समझी

अलग होने की रात थी वो!

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ना जाने कैसी रात थी वो,

ना उनकी तकलीफ़ देख पायी,

ना अपनी तकलीफ़ सह पायी,

समझ में जब आया, तब समझी,

अलग होने की रात थी वो!

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ना जाने कैसी रात थी वो,

ना वो मना पाए, ना मैं मान पायी,

ना वो मुस्कुराहट दे सके, ना मैं झूठी मुस्कुराहट दे पायी,

समझ में जब आया, तब समझी,

अलग होने की रात थी वो!

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ना जाने कैसी रात थी वो,

दुखी वो भी थे, दुखी मैं भी थी,

अश्क़ उन्होंने बहाए, अश्क़ मैंने भी बहाए,

समझ में जब आया, तब समझी,

अलग होने की रात थी वो!

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ना जाने कैसी रात थी वो,

जब एहसास उनकी ख़ुशी का नहीं अपनी ख़ुशी का हुआ,

जब मन रोने का नहीं मुस्कुराने का हुआ,

जब मन हसाने का नहीं हसने का हुआ,

समझ में जब आया, तब समझी,

अलग होने की रात थी वो!

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ना जाने कैसी रात थी वो,

जब मन दुनिया से भागने का नहीं दुनिया के बीच रहने का हुआ,

जब मन ज़िंदगी काटने का नहीं ज़िंदगी जीने का हुआ,

समझ में जब आया, तब समझी,

अलग होने की रात थी वो!

एहसास तो तब हुआ जब रब से इशारा मिला,

जब ख़ुद को तुम से आप करने का हौसला मिला,

जब हौसला ख़ुद से जीतने का मिला,

जब हौसला ख़ुद पे भरोसा करने का मिला,

जब हौसला कभी उम्मीद ना तोड़ने का मिला,

ना जाने कैसी रात थी वो,

समझ में जब आया, तब समझी,

अलग होने की रात नहीं,

ख़ुद को पाने की रात थी वो!

This is my first ever poetry written in Hindi.

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A LOVE HATE RELATIONSHIP!

Are you confused? Are you loving the person you hate or Are you hating the person you love? Not sure? Then go ahead!

Let’s say,

You are in a deep romantic relationship and you are so happy with your significant other that no other person makes you happy and there are times when you are so angry that you feel like to end the relationship without even thinking about the good times.

There are times when you promise to spend the rest of your life with them and then there are times when you just can’t stand being around them.

There are times when you do so mushy-mushy stuff and love each other madly and then there are times when your anger turns into a bad regretful behaviour.

There are times when your lovable tender moments turn into hurtful words.

There are times when you are making love with each other and there are times when you want to kill each other.

And if you feel this then understand that YOU ARE IN LOVE❤️ because when you are feeling every emotion with this person, you are in love sweetheart. And sometimes maybe sometimes this love hate relationship might frustrate you but you definitely have strong thoughts and emotions. And relationships are always like a rollercoaster. And it’s just a fact that you should not see these ups and downs as a problem of insecurity or a unhealthy thing.

And the person you thought while reading this is definitely the person for you❤️

Love!

A Letter to Him:)

This is something very personal and disheartening for me but real close to me.

Hey,

Today I want to tell you about the 20 years of my life without you,

You were not there when I spoke my first word,

You were not there when I was trying to walk with my little legs,

You were not there when I finally made my first step,

You were not there to drop me at my first day of school,

You were not there when I was learning to write,

You were not there to attend any of my Parent Teacher Meetings,

You were not there to scold me when I did not completed my work,

You were not there when I cried because I fell from my new cycle,

You were not there to comfort me when I got scared in the dark,

You were not there to protect me from guys negative intentions,

You were not there to hold my hand when I felt scared,

You were not there to guide me about what was right and what was wrong,

You were not there when my friends told me the stories about their dad and I cried,

You were not there when Mom scolded me and I wanted you to complain,

You were not there when I wanted you to complain about how bhai teased me,

You were not there to wish me on my Birthdays,

You were not there to buy me ice creams when I felt sad,

You were not there to listen to my pain when someone hurt my feelings,

You were not there to help me grow into a beautiful woman,

I don’t know you but what I know is that You were never there to hold us together. You were never there when Mum cried herself to sleep. You were never there when Bhai wanted a drink partner. You were never there when I wanted you to stop me from going out late at night. I wanted us to last.

But,

Then, It was your choice.

Now, It was god’s choice.

And now I am a grown up girl with Mom’s good teachings and blessings where she taught me to always be kind towards others whether they were true to me or not,

WITHOUT YOU,

I Miss You but I hate you and I am happy to not know and understand anything because hating you in memory is much easier than hating you in real would have been.

Just a thought.

Bye Bye🎈

A Final Goodbye🌹

This is something I want to say from my heart,

When I first met you, I had no idea that I will ever say a goodbye to you but this final goodbye needs some flashbacks too,

When we first met, that was the time I fell for you but I didn’t realised this at that point of time. I started learning new things, I started doing things which I never thought of doing, I started caring for you more than I ever cared for anybody else, I started thinking about you all the time. You were the reason for my sadness but you were the only reason for my happiness. Your laugh started getting into my ears and I swear I would have died for that sound because I loved the sound of your laugh. I starting looking at you when you did not notice and just by looking at you I could say that I would have spent my whole life with you. You were not my first but I saw all my firsts with you, from a normal place to what not? And You felt happy knowing that. I started realising that maybe you were falling too and then you actually started confessing and I was happy too because I was waiting. I started liking places where we could peacefully sit and talk but not drink and dance in some club. You cared for me the way nobody ever did, You got jealous when somebody gave me more attention or I talked to somebody else. And I felt happy too.You became my favourite place, my home, my family:)

But You know what?

In the end, It all happened just to listen that it was all Fake.

I was shattered, I gave you a lot many chances but each time a piece of my heart got away with your betrayal. I cried myself to sleep so that I might not listen to the fact that you never loved me. I was a girl who stayed happy in her own company and did not needed anybody but kept everybody happy too but by loving me, you broke a good girl.

A good girl who turned into a monster.

So to you and every other guy,

I wish you luck, I wish the best for you. But from now on I will no longer break my own rules just to keep you in my life. I still love you but I love myself more this time. So I forgive you for everything and I apologise where I went wrong But this time I am running away from you and your life. But I will always be there for you if you will ever need any help. So A Final Goodbye❤🌹

And Yes I never believed in forever but with you I started believing in Always but now Always too is just a lie💯

Love

Heartbroken is stronger❤

This is something every girl might relate to,

You broke my heart when you ignored me,

You broke my heart when you did not noticed my silence,

You broke my heart when you did not pay attention,

You broke my heart when you ignored my tears,

You broke my heart when you did not love me for who I was,

You broke my heart when you gave other people attention and not me,

You broke my heart when you shouted at me even when it was your fault,

You broke my heart when you disrespected me,

You broke my heart when you doubted on me for being loyal,

You broke my heart when I was not your first priority,

You broke my heart when you were being disloyal,

You broke my heart when I was crying myself to sleep,

You broke my heart when I didn’t receive the same efforts which I gave,

In the end,

YOU BROKE ME.

But being heartbroken is better than being the heartbreaker.

And realise that when you feel numb and broken, just understand that you are getting stronger. You are facing all the problems to overcome the pain. Never run away from this and face it your way.

Because pain makes us stronger.💯

And Heartbreak always makes you wiser.💯

I Love You Still:)

Thankyou

A Decision to embrace reality!

What is a decision? According to the dictionary, it means a conclusion or a resolution reached after consideration but in reality how do people take decisions? Not taking things or situations into consideration but it depends upon the mood of the person and the other person agrees with that decision.Why? Again MOOD. He/She is happy so why ruin there mood, he/she is upset or sad so why make them more upset. Make them more upset? Why? To disagree with someone’s decision if you don’t find it good makes you a person of your words and mind, this means you stand your words and are not afraid of giving your own opinions whether the other person likes it or not.

So hy guys, I thought of writing a long time back but made a decision today so I’ll let my heart out with the things, places,food or people I love the most.

Starved with fairytales so time to feed the reality.❤

And Your perceptions may not be my reality but I will make you embrace your reality even if it kills you but in the end will make you the happiest.

Thankyou